The expression 'If you hear hoof beats, think of horses not zebras' is used by the medical profession and this phrase sums up the philosophy that it is generally more productive to look for common rather than exotic causes for a disease. I was diagnosed with EDS type III in 2005 after battling with my symptoms for 12 years. So, just getting a diagnosis can be an heroic undertaking in a system designed for horses. Being a zebra can be a very lonely, confusing and frustrating place.

For those of you who are unfamiliar with Ehlers Danlos syndrome, it is a rare genetic connective tissue disorder that affects the body's production of collagen. Every collagen cell in my body is faulty and allows my skin, tendons, ligaments, bowel and vascular tissue to be super stretchy. This means that I suffer with tremendously low blood pressure, IBS, and joints that are all incredibly unstable and frequently sprain, or subluxate, even dislocate during the course of the day. My muscles will tighten up or 'cease up' to do the job my tendons and ligaments aren’t doing, this equals limited mobility and chronic pain most of the time. My skin is also affected and can tear and bruise easily and takes longer to heal which isn’t great for surgery. I will look like I’m 30 years old when I’m 60 but at the moment I feel like a 60 year old at 30! The most frustrating part about this syndrome is that I outwardly look normal, and people just cannot understand how I can be in so much pain and have so many limitations.

In 2006 I had corrective surgery to stabilize my pelvis, which took 9 months to rehabilitate from as I suffered a femoral nerve palsy, which means I now have very little or no feeling or control of my left leg. I was told by all medical professional that treated me through this period I should discontinue riding. But, I am a stubborn sort and battled against everyone’s advice and the extreme pain to keep on riding. This summer with the help and support of my instructor and friends Pandora and I competed in our first ever British Dressage test and came 6th. I’m hoping to maybe get a classification for riding British Dressage Para's in the future but, unfortunately I am facing further surgery to stabilize my ankles so will be hanging up my reins for a little while.

This blog is to document my journey through surgery, my determination to succeed with British Dressage and the general ups and downs of life living with Ehlers Danlos syndrome. Not only for my own sanity but, hopefully to inspire others with disabilities to take life by the horns and achieve the best they can too.

My moto in life is 'dont focus on what you cannot do, but find what you can do and do it in an awsome way'

Saturday, 9 October 2010

Feeling Positive

Although I have encountered a couple of ups and downs, this past week has been a great week!
I had a brilliant lesson with my dressage instructor. Panni was very fresh and  particularly forward going as a result. My instructor seemed to like this and commented on how well she looked. We discussed my recent letter with regard to para dressage grading and with her support I feel a lot more positive about pursuing it further. 
The lesson was very productive and we started bringing in lateral work. I didnt feel like I had worked any harder than we normally do in our lessons and I had been given plenty of rest breaks, but on dismounting I nearly hit the deck which was very embarrassing  in front of everyone. My legs had been feeling dull and lazy for a few days before hand and for some reason they just didnt want to hold me up. Thankfully I still had hold of my saddle and my friend was immediatly behind me. It wasnt long before my knees started to engage and my legs began to do their job and I was able to walk Panni back to the stables. Although scary at the time I can have a little giggle to myself about it now. I have dusted off my hikers walking sticks to keep in the car should my legs feel dull and lazy again, but part of me feels like Im giving in if I start using them again?!
The other good thing to come out of this weeks events is a new car!! After months of trawling the internet we went to see another car at this garage and stubbled across this really cute looking BMW X3 sport. It really is perfect and ticks all the right boxes. Im just waiting to collect it in a few days time. It will be heaven to drive my own automatic car rather than pinching my husbands at every opportunity.
So hopefully next week will be as good as the one just past. I have a new car coming, I also have an appointment with my ankle surgeon to discuss further treatment and an appointment with an orthotisist who will be able to provide me with more functional splints and braces, fingers crossed?!

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